I have learned recently that having "plenty" can be a trial. Why? Because gaining the whole world means losing your soul! When The Lord only gives me enough for today I am forced to trust him. Hasn't he given and taken away? I try to to build up and hoard my blessing and resources. I try to plan ahead AS IF I have any control over tomorrow. Can't the lord take it away in an instant? Yes he can.... Whether I trust him or not. (See morning July 16 by Spurgeon)
When I am "in want" I am simply awakened to that ever present reality. Why would I desire suffering or want? What is the purpose?... Because being in want protects me from befriending the world. I do not realize the scandalous danger of leaning on my understanding. Oh that I would see the evil of that snare! Oh that I would desire The Lord! May I pant after him like a deer after streams of water. Panting is not a flippant, nonchalant desire to sip a mimosa. Panting is a life-hanging-in-the-balance need to get on my knees and drink long and hard from that life giving flow. He has always been enough.
Lord make me pant for you lest I dry up in ignorant silence.
Philippians 4:10-13
Psalm 42
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